At a bar drinking my worries away

Im gonna just lay it out here as honest as I can.

My name is Josh, I am 22 and looking to meet someone casually, be firends? date? see if it grows into a relationship, I’m not smooth, but if and when I ever am I still have that cute shy/nervous corniness to me. I am a romantic, I enjoy being corny. I get it from the movies and the dozens of Tv shows I have watched since I can remember. Im geeky.. Im nerdy.. Its who I am and I dont want to change that.

Ive work for youtube, I now work at a comic book store, I also am a filmmaker, writer, artist, graphic designer. I might have a ton of geeky stuff in my place but that shouldn’7t be a turn off, if anything it shows I have my priorities straight and have money to enjoy what I love. (A friend of mine told me that and I now live by it because I am proud)

I just got my first apartment a little under 3 months ago, First time I am living on my own and its pretty cool. I have 2 cats with me because one of them just got diagnosed with Kiney failure but I caught it early and hes doing well and the other because its his brother and I dont wanna separate them, I love all animals so someone with allergies just will have to deal or move on.

I love movies/netflix/hulu, reading, I love story telling. which is a great way to enjoy cuddling at the same time, see that segway? yeah I love to cuddle.

Ive been saying “I” a lot and making a lot of statements but at this point I am just laying it all out there, this is who I am. Some people say leave room for mystery and that is true and all but I wanna show a decent amount of things about myself so theres a bigger chance for someone to read and say “Hey, this guy sounds like my type, I wanna get to know him.”

Where I feel like Ted Mosby. I am done dating, looking, searching. I am just here being me and not finding anyone, or no one is finding me? I know I am a catch (realistically) I dont have a ego where I feel I am an amazing guy or something. I know what I am and it (should) be attractive to a wide sort of women. loyal, romantic, corny, compassionate, good listener, passionate, a job, money, loves animals, responsible…The list goes on and on. What am I doing wrong?

Geeky is in right? Nerd is cool now? then why am I alone? 

Ive tried online dating, friends of friends, all that stuff and I am not attracting anyone.. is something wrong with me? 

goodbye everyone

I have 2 cats

I cannot be with woman physically if I don’t love her

does that make me a terrible person? less of a guy? all my friends (in person) I think would think of me as less of a man…